When would you quit smoking for real?

:/

Don't lie to me..

LALALALALALALALA
So,i guess we're up again yeah? *crowd's thunderous applause*
Gotta swimm often. at least once a week (when menses are on vacation...like now. HEHE)

MY WEIGHT IS APPROXIMATELY 50KG NOW!!!!!!

*HULK SMASHHHHH*

OK. topic changed to studies:

Not bad. ;) for once my chinese is 33/45. WOOOOO. australian standard la. ok. hahahahaha lost 6 marks on one simple question that i read wrongly. make me feel so.....

hahahahahahaha what an expression. 

English is such a disappointment so face. getting 'D's so far (only two tests) and exams are like...4 days in a row. MATI SIOL *Syahmi's malay accent* (HAHA)

hai. september is still 4 months away. ~T____T~

My biology teacher is so... epic. she clearly marked me correctly (that i made a mistake) and at the Marks,she put 15/15 for my quiz. hahahaha how could she not see the "x" she made at one question? Maths is still crappy. i swear i hate methods. GRAPH GRAPH GRAPH. urgh. >:(

my eyes are allergic to graphs,coordinates,domain and ranges. suck suck suck. :S 

I FEEL SO.....SLEEPY. despite the fact that i slept for 3 and a half hours just now. hahahaha. i have huge eyebags now.  u_u sigh. makes my eyes smaller than ever.

For a moment,you made me feel like you want the r/s more than I do,
For a moment,you made me feel like I'm not redundant anymore.
But after that,they way you texted,the tone,everything.
You don't want the relationship,do you?
All i was thinking was a way to try and help you since you're always stressed out. Then i got the response of "what you want me to do? drop out? stop hanging out? keep a distance away from girls?"
Like as if any of those would be what i want. I swear last night you scarred me by your words. If all those were spoken out of anger then don't apologise. I've got enough of you speaking to me out of anger. What am I? Your punching bag? Just because I forgive you over and over again it means I'll still forgive you this time round.
But i know one thing's for sure. I never cried like last night for a long time. Ever since my last break up. 

You win, Syahmi, you win.

Cato should have won the massed singing! i mean....they sung disney medley! HOW CAN THAT NOT BE A WINNING SONG. *pulls hair and scream*

crazy+mad.

SO....rushing day. chemistry and biology undone assignment and all due on monday. crazy or what?! and tuesday it's method's big test. FML. gonna lose more hair than ever yknow?

Something's seriously troubling my thoughts on my relationship. Like serious! i mean,couples do get their ups and downs sometimes right? but why mine always have so many problems. :/ maybe it's just ME. yknow?

But what seems to be the problemo? Guess i'm too possessive (again). Bloody hell. Thought about singlehood the other day and for a brief moment i felt joy. Its true! and i found out i never do cryings all the time until i get into relationship. That's when drama starts. Whats worse,it's a long distance one. [this does NOT mean i want a break up anytime soon]

"Need trust,need love" yada yada yada. We all know that. but the question is,HOW? How are you going to maintain them? Plus,girls are such high maintenance. Need to soak on a bathtub of love everyday to "remember" how much our boyfriends love us. One day without those sweet talks = "OHH he doesn't love me anymore i'm so afraid." then *cry*. Girls,girls,girls. But i think it's true yknow. Right now i feel like mine's on some rocky water. like i never know what will happen next. So many things i yearn for,so many things i don't know how to put into words.

I MEAN COME ON..

If you want something from your boyfriend you dont just go "give me that. i want it badly" right? you want it from them,but you don't want to tell. bloody shit. and what's funny is that even with hints boys can't get them. they need us to Spell.It.Out. hahahaha i'm not being bad or whatever nonsense. But...something's really different bout S. :/ not sure whether i like it or not though. it's kinda like making me feel like we're on thin ice? afraid but yet i trust him. Something's really wrong bout my thoughts. I keep having feelings that he's lying. urgh. :S maybe it's because of our limited time to talk ever since poly has started? ._. So afraid this will make me lose my concentration towards studies cause i tend to space out a lot when we get upset over stuffs. and i keep checking my phone but i know S. doesn't cause whatsapp always shows the last time he opened whatsapp was long ago. WHYYYYYYY. (not referring to him not checking) but why am i getting so....possessive. Never check regularly = caring less. why why why why why. okay. i should check less from now on. Or i'll be more and more possessive. its like the question "why doesn't he check his whatsapp?!" always pops in my mind. especially when he can tweet but not talk to me during lessons. Think i'm going mad. like really.. xS

When would you quit smoking for real?

:/

Don't lie to me..

LALALALALALALALA
So,i guess we're up again yeah? *crowd's thunderous applause*
Gotta swimm often. at least once a week (when menses are on vacation...like now. HEHE)

MY WEIGHT IS APPROXIMATELY 50KG NOW!!!!!!

*HULK SMASHHHHH*

OK. topic changed to studies:

Not bad. ;) for once my chinese is 33/45. WOOOOO. australian standard la. ok. hahahahaha lost 6 marks on one simple question that i read wrongly. make me feel so.....

hahahahahahaha what an expression. 

English is such a disappointment so face. getting 'D's so far (only two tests) and exams are like...4 days in a row. MATI SIOL *Syahmi's malay accent* (HAHA)

hai. september is still 4 months away. ~T____T~

My biology teacher is so... epic. she clearly marked me correctly (that i made a mistake) and at the Marks,she put 15/15 for my quiz. hahahaha how could she not see the "x" she made at one question? Maths is still crappy. i swear i hate methods. GRAPH GRAPH GRAPH. urgh. >:(

my eyes are allergic to graphs,coordinates,domain and ranges. suck suck suck. :S 

I FEEL SO.....SLEEPY. despite the fact that i slept for 3 and a half hours just now. hahahaha. i have huge eyebags now.  u_u sigh. makes my eyes smaller than ever.

For a moment,you made me feel like you want the r/s more than I do,
For a moment,you made me feel like I'm not redundant anymore.
But after that,they way you texted,the tone,everything.
You don't want the relationship,do you?
All i was thinking was a way to try and help you since you're always stressed out. Then i got the response of "what you want me to do? drop out? stop hanging out? keep a distance away from girls?"
Like as if any of those would be what i want. I swear last night you scarred me by your words. If all those were spoken out of anger then don't apologise. I've got enough of you speaking to me out of anger. What am I? Your punching bag? Just because I forgive you over and over again it means I'll still forgive you this time round.
But i know one thing's for sure. I never cried like last night for a long time. Ever since my last break up. 

You win, Syahmi, you win.

Cato should have won the massed singing! i mean....they sung disney medley! HOW CAN THAT NOT BE A WINNING SONG. *pulls hair and scream*

crazy+mad.

SO....rushing day. chemistry and biology undone assignment and all due on monday. crazy or what?! and tuesday it's method's big test. FML. gonna lose more hair than ever yknow?

Something's seriously troubling my thoughts on my relationship. Like serious! i mean,couples do get their ups and downs sometimes right? but why mine always have so many problems. :/ maybe it's just ME. yknow?

But what seems to be the problemo? Guess i'm too possessive (again). Bloody hell. Thought about singlehood the other day and for a brief moment i felt joy. Its true! and i found out i never do cryings all the time until i get into relationship. That's when drama starts. Whats worse,it's a long distance one. [this does NOT mean i want a break up anytime soon]

"Need trust,need love" yada yada yada. We all know that. but the question is,HOW? How are you going to maintain them? Plus,girls are such high maintenance. Need to soak on a bathtub of love everyday to "remember" how much our boyfriends love us. One day without those sweet talks = "OHH he doesn't love me anymore i'm so afraid." then *cry*. Girls,girls,girls. But i think it's true yknow. Right now i feel like mine's on some rocky water. like i never know what will happen next. So many things i yearn for,so many things i don't know how to put into words.

I MEAN COME ON..

If you want something from your boyfriend you dont just go "give me that. i want it badly" right? you want it from them,but you don't want to tell. bloody shit. and what's funny is that even with hints boys can't get them. they need us to Spell.It.Out. hahahaha i'm not being bad or whatever nonsense. But...something's really different bout S. :/ not sure whether i like it or not though. it's kinda like making me feel like we're on thin ice? afraid but yet i trust him. Something's really wrong bout my thoughts. I keep having feelings that he's lying. urgh. :S maybe it's because of our limited time to talk ever since poly has started? ._. So afraid this will make me lose my concentration towards studies cause i tend to space out a lot when we get upset over stuffs. and i keep checking my phone but i know S. doesn't cause whatsapp always shows the last time he opened whatsapp was long ago. WHYYYYYYY. (not referring to him not checking) but why am i getting so....possessive. Never check regularly = caring less. why why why why why. okay. i should check less from now on. Or i'll be more and more possessive. its like the question "why doesn't he check his whatsapp?!" always pops in my mind. especially when he can tweet but not talk to me during lessons. Think i'm going mad. like really.. xS